Giving up Sport and Booze
When I found out I was pregnant, it was mixed emotions. My Mother in law was moments away from her final breath, and it was an emotionally loaded time. I felt like this unborn child might save his family (and me) from some of the devastation in a little way, but it also felt like an enormous crying shame.. peppered with regret and sadness. More on how that all went down another time. Heavy. But this is about how my baby is half way cooked and how I am "dealing" with the changes in me, my behaviour, and really my whole life. If you know me, you know I own a sports company, I am super active, and a LOVE to drink. That's me in a nutshell. I mean I am dominant, persuasive, hard to argue with and emotionally tough, but I am mostly the first 3 things. Bring pregnant I have had to give up my two main identifying qualities, and as I dissect the sub text, I wonder if this identity crisis is what lies beneath some feelings of anxiety. Sport. Although I'm not good a...