Life of Recreation

I still lack sympathy, mostly because I find victims insufferable I want to be different and abnormal at every turn (even though I am the most normal person in the world) Life is full of tragedy and the older you get the more it hits you You die twice, once when you leave the earth and the second time when the last person mentions your name. Thanks Mackelmore Relationships are all about compromise and sometimes caring about the small things Having boundaries around your personal life is an essential task I became psychologically independent as early as 4 years of age It takes all sorts to make the world go round, no everyone is gonna be like you, or you will like Who you were when you were 9 was probably the purest version of who you are at your heart Cancer will kill the fuck out of you Meditation is not a wank, it's simply stopping and connecting to your inner thoughts, it's imperative To me, drinking is a ceremony of friendship and bonding Being pregnant has

When I found out I was pregnant, it was mixed emotions. My Mother in law was moments away from her final breath, and it was an emotionally loaded time. I felt like this unborn child might save his family (and me) from some of the devastation in a little way, but it also felt like an enormous crying shame.. peppered with regret and sadness. More on how that all went down another time. Heavy. But this is about how my baby is half way cooked and how I am "dealing" with the changes in me, my behaviour, and really my whole life. If you know me, you know I own a sports company, I am super active, and a LOVE to drink. That's me in a nutshell. I mean I am dominant, persuasive, hard to argue with and emotionally tough, but I am mostly the first 3 things. Bring pregnant I have had to give up my two main identifying qualities, and as I dissect the sub text, I wonder if this identity crisis is what lies beneath some feelings of anxiety. Sport.  Although I'm not good a

Listen to me. Fuck, I know what I'm talking about. Admitting I have a clue is a constant struggle. I am someone who is so confident, proud, outgoing, an self assured, why would I struggle like this? I'll tell you why, because when you have your own company people stop telling you how good you are doing every day. You don't have a boss, a side-kick, no one. You are just you, plugging away hoping one day someone will come along and be like "fuck me, you are insanely talented, look at you making something out of nothing". I mean people will be like. "wow, good for you having your own company... do you actually do any work?". It's passive aggressive, backhanded complimentary fuck-tard-ville. Bottom line is, I have a clue. I have been doing this for 5 years, and you know what. I know how to do this shit. I know this now because my company is expanding, and I am ready to impart my wisdom. I know this because I employ one beautiful soul and lead